The sky above the port was the color of television, tuned to a dead channel.
My friend, my son, my big fella, Murderface Sandwich, passed away this morning, April 25, 2013, almost two weeks after turning five.
Murderface was my best friend. He saw me through some of the roughest moments, as well as some of my best. He wasn’t always the friendliest of friends, but he made it clear, whether he was following me room to room, waking me up everyday at 5am for breakfast, or sitting on my stomach, kneading away, that he appreciated my love and attention.
We drove halfway across the country together, through the desert, under the starry glow of the Milky Way. We spent countless lazy hours melting in the blue light of online streaming videos. He talked to me matter-of-factly, in that way only cats can: by meowing; only his meows conveyed a nuanced sense of emotion. Call me crazy, but I believe Murderface was a master of human inflection.
Murderface didn’t have the easiest life. His health was always rocky. Whether it was his bladder or his heart that was just too big, caring for him could be trying . At the snap of a finger, he would be at death’s door. But he defied the doctors’ expectations time after time, recovering from severe illness just as quickly as he was stricken, only to come back stronger and happier. This time, however, he was no longer up for it. He fought hard, but no amount of money or hospitalization could have saved him. His heart and his body had been through enough.
As he fell asleep for the last time, I held him, apologized, told him I loved him — but I also thanked him. I thanked him for trusting me, loving me, and for finding me.
I’m going to miss waking up to his warm body across my legs, the little chirp he made when I served his food, and I’m especially going to miss seeing him lounge on my shoes, your shoes, anyone’s shoes!
Goodbye, big guy. Wherever you are, I know you’ve finally found that comfortable spot you were always looking for…
Actually bothered me, this passing. I like cats.